may 22, 2017 - 22 may Y22 (TH)

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I was walking through the pine forest when I saw hyung taking the call, lagging behind. It happened a lot lately. He would make the call somewhere far away so others wouldn’t be able to listen. I purposely slowed down my pace and hid myself towards the sea. Hyung didn’t see my and walked straight past. “He’s only a year younger than me.. I don’t care. It’s not something I can take responsibility for anyway. Please take care of it yourself.”

Something cold ran down my spine. Like the whole world had just collapsed, like I was floating in the middle of the deep sea alone. I was scared, terrified. I was miserable and pathetic. I was angry. Angry and couldn’t stand it. I wanted to do something bad, anything. I was always scared. Dad’s blood was flowing inside me. Who knows, maybe I inherited his violence gene. It felt like from inside the shield I had wrapped up so tightly, something was piercing through to come out.

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One of my fav moment and sadest moment from these notes. And the most interresting.
Tae cosidered Joon like his mentor, his help, his big brother. He counted on him. And hearing Namjoon saying that was just a shock.
However I can understand Namjoon's point. He seems like he wants to take control of his life.

BUT let's not forget, this is Tae's POV, he didn't hear the beginning and the end of this phone call. So we can't be 100% sure that this is what Namjoon really meant.

Another mystery, with who Namjoon was talking to ?

Unfortunatly, after this ep, Tae is totally sure that he is the same as his father. "Anger " is a key word.
My guess is that he will probably start to think about the idea of killing his father right after that

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