23h 32min, may 25, 2014 y - EMAIL Amber Heard TO SELF

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This is timed after the plane flight from Boston to LA:

If he doesn't know how scared I am, must be, then I have overestimated him, which I don't think I have, but maybe you are right. He should know because he should love me and know if anyone did this to you or Lily-Rose, he'd fucking kill them.

He needs to be accountable and aware enough to know that, to know how much I've been put through and how scared I must be. I've given him a thousand sorrys and a thousand chances and couldn't have been more supportive throughout.

I'm not going to live my future like this. I can sit back and be there when he finally kills himself. Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results. That's what I'm doing by staying in his life. I have nothing left to say.

He doesn't have the impetus to fix this, to fix us, then it wasn't important enough to him. Bottom line, I have done all the fixing, all the carrying, all the putting my faith into him being disappointed and lied to over and over.

Now its time for him to do the caring. He needs to care for himself. He needs to fix us, fix this, not me. If I fix it again, it will happen again and I'm done. If he seems confused, feel free to explain to him or don't. I'm not sure it matters at this point.

I need time and space to recover. The man I love and want to marry called me an embarrassment and a whore amongst other things in front of a plane full of people who did NOTHING before kicking me, kicking me in the back and then mocked me for crying about it immediately after.


SOURCE:
UK Court Documents:
- Transcript Day 5 pp778-80

US Court Documents:
- Amber Heard Exhibit 238 [UNPUBLISHED]

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