1 h, mar 26, 2015 y - AUDIO
RECORDING
Adderall Junkie
26 MARCH 2015
Description:
Excerpts from a recording made on this day (as agreed by both parties) were read out during the UK Trial and played during the US VA Trial.
RECORDING TRANSCRIPT (fuller version than was entered into evidence)
AH: I see somebody who is changing, always, into different versions of a person that I recognize for a brief moment, and then he slips away and he disappears. And then I get a different version of him. I get the insecure scared version of him that lashes out in a different medium every time. So if it's Adderall junkie Johnny, then he's abusive and he's a bully and he's a tyrant and he's mean and he's reactionary and he's incendiary, and anything I do and say is calls for violence or anger. If I speak to him honestly and bluntly from the heart, I'm yelling at him. If I argue back with him, then I'm abusive. If I don't say anything, then I am dismissive or absent or "what's wrong" or somewhere else. If I engage with him, I'm part of the problem, I'm yelling, I'm mean. If I don't engage with him, then I'm part of the problem. No matter what I do, I'm fucked. Because if I look at him the wrong way, he's the problem. If I say the wrong thing, God knows what it is, I'm the problem. I'm the problem, really? That's the guy who's on a bunch of fucking speed (missing words) I have never seen you go on a binge without being addicted to something.
JD: When
AH: I am sorry I have never seen somebody go on a four-day bender not even know their finger was broken.. (missing words) …writing on walls, lampshades, addressing co-stars I have no relationship with sorry, but this is shit crazy
JD: Yeah, it is
SOURCE:
UK Court Documents: - Transcript Day 3 pp486 - 488 - Trial Bundle Supplementary Item 140
