jun 23, 2012 - Game incident with my cosine.

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After months of desperate search finally I found an original DVD of the game in a store, somewhere around June.
I spent the summer destroying that game. The funny thing is after I was exposed to it. I almost forgot about everything that was programmed in me the year before.
In the back of my mind, I always knew “I’m going to hell probably”.
But somewhere the fear was distant. Like death. You Know at some point it’s gonna get you but it’s distant enough that sometimes it loses the urgency.
Sex in a video game was relatively new to me. I started playing games with my mother’s laptop since I was around “9” or “8”. It was pretty restricted. I was not allowed to play during school nights, and she absolutely forbid me to play GTA.
But not everything went through censorship. My cosine who is 2 years older than me installed “God of war” on the laptop one day when he was over at our place. At some point in the game, he said “hey, let me show you something”. Then he moves the character to a room with naked women…
This very same thing encouraged me to trust him enough to show him what was possible in Sims.
It was all good until he started to look into a specific family and house that I made. The family was only made of two guys and upon him asking: “where the wife is?” I said:” no man you don’t need a woman, you can also do it with men, look!”
“what? What are you doing?” he asked.
“what? Sometimes you do it with girls and sometimes with guys.” I said.
“what the fuck? Do u even know what the fuck does that even mean? That’s what devil worshippers do. That’s why imam Ali said you should never do such things. It’s haram.
these are evil, and you need to stay away from it. This game was probably made by and for devil worshippers. You really need to stay away from it.
Cause if you don’t, the government will send the police to your door and they’ll take you to a prison. They’ll take you to a prison so dark that you can’t see anything anymore. That’ll be your punishment for looking at these.”
After that conversation, I was so afraid that I literally took a knife and destroyed the DVD.
It’s sad and kinda funny when I look back at it now. It feels like by default this was a normal natural thing to me. Sometimes you do it with girls and sometimes with boys.
Seems like people are born by nature to accept this as a natural thing and this way of thinking only gets distorted when other human beings try to force their sick ideologies to it and basically pollute it

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