- I first start to damage myself, hitting things in anger, cutting with comb
bloodying knuckles on walls, hitting self to
relieve the internal stress, gives real 'relief'
- also start hitting and smashing inanimate objects in temper
- people start to call me weird and know I'm quiet / macarbe otherwise I have friends e.g. 5 I'm extremely loyal
- start negative thought cycles alone, working self into frenzy
- I focus on esacping home, to university in1999 (15 Jan 1995 Jahr – 5 Sept 2003 Jahr)